I have a confession to make. I have a lovely collection of high heels and most pairs have never been worn. Why? Well, I like to be comfortable and I like to walk fast (I am a native New Yorker, after all), so I tend to reach for flats, boots, wedges, heck - even flip flops before I slip on my stilettos. But this has always been my preference so why on earth did I ever stock up on high heels and er, Louboutins, no less? Well, to be fair, they are Louboutins and, as such, are hard to resist for a fashion lover. Even as I write this I have 3 pairs on my wish list. No, I'm not proud of myself but they're just too pretty to resist! Is there a rehab for shoe lovers?

Well while I have made more of an effort lately to get used to wearing heels and wearing my pretty but uncomfortable shoes more often, I do wonder what made me spend good money on these things knowing that I would barely use them. And if I'm really honest about it, I was buying more than just the pretty shoes themselves. I was also buying the kinds of things I pictured myself being able to do if I had the shoes. It was as if I thought that having amazing shoes would make me more likely to go to amazing places and parties and meet amazing, fashionable people who would love me because I too belonged to the amazing shoe owner club. Oh my gosh that sounds so silly, but...it's true. I was shopping for a fantasy life and I'd bet that quite a few of us have done that from time to time. But in my case, when I really considered what was going on, I realized that this fantasy life was one which I did want to make a reality some way. So I took this as a hint that I needed to make a few changes. Yes, I am actually telling you that when I realized I was buying fancy shoes with no where to wear them, I decided that my life needed to change rather than my misguided purchases. Here's the thing, I have always loved fashion and designer things. I've always preferred to check out cool new restaurants or museums, go to parties and lounges with amazing cocktails and people watching. So why the heck was I not indulging in any of that?!?! Why was I spending my days in a way where a grocery run to the Super Walmart was the grandest thing on the agenda? With that in mind, I knew I had to make a change. And that's what I'm working on now.

But what about you? Do you shop for a fantasy life or do you shop for your reality? Don't be afraid to really consider this because there are so many ways to make your life more glamorous or adventurous or whatever you want without having to rebuild it from the ground up.

On to the fun stuff...here are the current pairs on my wish list:

Louboutin Bianca, I'm kind of obsessed with these shoes. I had them in kid leather once but they were sent to me damaged so I had them for only a day before they went back. I love them in black (kid vs patent?) and this nude! 120mm all the way and w… — Louboutin Bianca, I'm kind of obsessed with these shoes. I had them in kid leather once but they were sent to me damaged so I had them for only a day before they went back. I love them in black (kid vs patent?) and this nude! 120mm all the way and with the platform they're actually very comfortable.

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Another pair of Louboutin and these are too beautiful for words. But at $2,795, I'll need a sugar daddy hook up to be able to add these to my wardrobe. Artifice 100mm Strass.

I need a pair of Loubi spikes and this pair of nude Yolandas are super sexy. I love that the spikes and leather are tone on tone instead of the usual super blingy contrast. My only concern is that Louboutin peep toes tend to be uncomfortable for me.… — I need a pair of Loubi spikes and this pair of nude Yolandas are super sexy. I love that the spikes and leather are tone on tone instead of the usual super blingy contrast. My only concern is that Louboutin peep toes tend to be uncomfortable for me.